Thoughts and Musings:
By Sukanya Narayan
By Emily D.C
By Sangeeta Mahana
Thoughts and musings:
I wish to express my gratitude to Nilakshi Borgohain for inspiring me to write poetry – a labour of love I had earlier not dared to venture into. My maiden flight took off on the first janata curfew announced in March 2020 in connection with COVID 19 and landed straight onto Ms. Borgohain’s blog. Having achieved some kind of immortality in print
( thanks to my friend ), followed by her kind words of encouragement, some confidence was built up to pen a few more poems on subjects close to my heart.
Ms. Borgohain herself is a prolific writer, poet and lover of Mother Nature. Her works have inspired me into writing which brought along a great sense of satisfaction and fulfilment. I have realised that poetry helps to pour out one’s feelings into words and makes one aware that the ‘ brain is wider than the sky’ to borrow a line from Emily Dickinson.
I am very thankful to Nilakshi for guiding me to another unique way to experience the joys and happiness in life. ___Emily D.C.2020.
Emily's Poems from 2020 to 21. SUNSET I stopped to view The still, passive river Flowing alongside, Stretched out wide Far into the horizon. When all at once, The beauty Of the warmest hues; Painted above In the brilliant blue sky, Caught my watchful eye. Splendid sunset, Crimson and radiant, Ablaze with iridescent colours Of red, yellow, gold and orange, Rich and ruddy, Lay resplendent before me. The colossal ball of fire Burned in flaming finery, Setting slowly In its reddest glory: The day’s journey is over. Dark and grey, Blood flecked clouds Add colour above. Float and glowed To greet the blue hour. The silvery moon shines bright As night descends To drown me in darkness. Plaintively, the mighty river whispers, The transience of life and happiness. Restless soul marvels, At the golden hour Of ephemeral brilliance. Unforgettable moment Expands the joyful heart, To cry out loud In ecstasy, This is Heaven on Earth! ————————— Emily DC 2021 ______ Motherhood My darling daughter, From the time your father Placed the tiny bundle in my arms, My joy knew no bounds. I glanced at your pink, crinkly face, Peep out of that pretty lace, A new life's about to start; Love and happiness filled my heart. I thank God For this precious gift from above. My darling daughter, How quickly you grew Into an adorable toddler. Ran around the place, Paint smeared on your lovely face. Chased your little dog around, Played hide and seek till you fell down. Beaming smile lit up your eyes, Tinkle of your laughter was a big surprise, Watching you grow, brought us great delight. My darling daughter, You blossomed into a beautiful flower, Soon after, Pretty and perky A wee bit naughty. Played tennis and cricket Hockey, you dreaded. Cycling with great delight, Speeding up and down the narrow lanes, I shrieked with fright Blissful joy filled our lives. My darling daughter, Like the blink of an eye Time flew by. You entered womanhood: Confident and independent. Travelled long distances, Loved and shared with overflowing abundance; Pursued a career with rewards and success. While you celebrate this new phase, my dear, Discover also life's pinnacle of happiness. My darling daughter,I do implore Delve deeper into the essence of womanhood Wherein nestles countless joys of motherhood A powerful word, a challenging experience, Accompanying rewards of sheer brilliance. A sacred journey of togetherness A blessing of lifelong bonds, Laden with care and unconditional love. Experience it, love and cherish it, Swell our hearts with glory and pride Bring in a deeper meaning to your life. My delightful darling daughter. ------------------- FAITH Eyes opened at crack of dawn To the air, clear and light beyond, Few hours of silence relished Ruminating past events in peace. Soon, the birds chirp and sing In the yellow glare of sunlight, Rich treble voices ring out loud; Sweet melody floats across soft clouds. Soared up in pure, exultant tone; Bearing my heavy heart along, Eased soulful, profound thoughts, Helped me forget awhile, LIfe's trials unsought. Another new day is promised, Glory to the Lord; I rise from bed and vow To repose my deepest faith in Him. ------------- The Enchantress Lighted up in flaming red, Crown of emerald green overhead, A silent beholder Standing at the gate, To shower upon us From lofty airy heights, Nature's beaming benevolence. Clothed in colourful brilliance, A thousand glances she'd attract. Travellers and ramblers, visitors and lovers Rested under her cool, breezy shade. No wonder, she was placed at the gate! We sang and danced, Played and read Beneath her shade. Saw her grow Higher and higher, year after year. Quietly, she watched over us, Amused at our frisk and frolic. Planted some decades ago, By our dear father. Tended and pruned, Nourished her to bloom Brilliant clusters of scarlet flowers, To brighten the street from far. Striking multi hued parasol, she spread, Of leafy, filigreed branches ; Feathery, fern like leaves rustled Fiery flowers of red, she displayed. Through the gate, we entered Breathing her rich, earthy fragrance. Then one dark and stormy night, Lightning struck her down. She lay broken: torn apart, On the wet, muddy ground. Tears rolled down our cheeks Hearts cried out in grief. Sturdy, wrinkling bark of wood, Left behind as parting gift. The lone Flamboyant tree, The Golmohor, the Royal Poinciana Or simply the Street Tree. Call her what you will, Along our lane, she had acquired fame. Known as the Enchantress, Her magical colours captivated Every visitor, caller and friend. Lost forever, but never to forget The charm of the old scarlet flame. Emily DC 2021. Dance of Butterflies Have you ever seen a sight A not so common one: Of beautiful, bright butterflies, Together they fly; Hundreds and thousands Flitter and flutter, Yellow in colour? Delightful butterflies danced above Along the road I travelled, Glided and glistened Like a yellow silk ribbon, Wafted and floated In clear blue sky; I smiled and sighed. This glimpse of divine joy- Precious blessing is recalled From spidery recesses of mind; To bestow a little cheer, my dear, Into dull, mundane existence. November,2020
Allamanda Cathartica Striking yellow flowers Bloom in profusion, Shaped like bells Laden on boughs Hang gracefully across the wall From an old gaunt tree, ten feet tall. Gnarled, bronze bark Twisted and knotted Rooted into Earth's luscious lap, Thrive under the wide firmament. A canopy of heavy foliage, Oval, green leaves Countless whorls of five Dance overhead : Serenity and peace reign. Overarching branches spread out far Enfold trees, shrubs that come by; Embrace and creep heavenwards Magnificence shared with living creatures. Mild breeze caress the ingenuous flowers, Five lobed sepals tumble down in a shower; Yellow flowered carpet beautify Long winding walkway outside. Allamanda! reborn each season, Beauty burst forth again; Evergreen story recounted Of hope, Grace and colour. So rise souls anew Exude joy and splendour; Life, so precious and dear. October,2020. *************
White and furry, soft and snowy
Eyes shut, new born pups
Come and see, all lined up
Leila’s special gift to us.
Leila, now in Heaven,
At her new family.
Cute and cuddly, eleven in all
Crawling on the parquet hall
Careful, the litter doesn’t come
Under your feet, avoid a fall.
Pups growing big and fluffy
Brown eyes and full of energy.
Climbing chairs, running up the stairs
In a frenzy, driving us all crazy.
Demands arose at home for pets
What could be better than get–from Leila’s set
‘This little one has stolen my heart,
We’ll call her Lara, rhymes well with Leila.’
Life’s a roller coaster,
At home with Lara.
Darting around all day long
Under sideboards and beds
Getting caught between our legs.
Pairs of socks shred to tiny bits
Hair brush broken in a few minutes.
Shoes and sandals, all chewed up
Lara’s wormed her way into our hearts.
Any sound at the main gate
Lara rushes out to guard our place
Curling up to snooze on deep easy chair
Four grubby paws thrown up in the air.
Lara is now nine,
She is fit and fine.
Loves to hug, get a belly rub.
Not frisky and playful
Nor such a big handful
No running or jumping
Still our most beloved darling.
‘Dogs are better than humans because they know but do not tell’…… Emily Dickinson.
L I F E
Tread softly oh twilight years
Stumble onto life’s uncertainties and fears,
Turning the pages of days gone by–
How time flies.
Memories emerge from the mind’s eye
Of childhood dreams and adventure stories
Sibling fights and secret delights
Days of youth will not come by.
People known have come and gone
Many were old and a few young
But the world moved on like before
Business is as usual, say no more.
Travelled the arduous journey of life
Endured one’s share of struggle and strife
Held steadfast to beliefs and desire
To love, protect and persevere.
Fears and worries of everyday life
Kept one awake on many a tearful night
Faith and prayers helped surmount,
Only love and peace did count.
Soared upon the wings of success
Trophies and awards, settled for no less
No place for them in the world today
Old age has come to stay.
Visits to exotic places made
Souvenirs collected and showcased
Gathering dust on shelves today
Happy one would be, to give them away.
Children flew out of the happy nest
To seek places that suit them best
Evenings spent in quiet twosome
Reminiscing yesteryears’ ups and downs.
Reaching out to the poor and needy
Save at least one soul from misery
Blessed to be of any service
Before the good Lord calls for me.
I love the rain
Herald of spring
Bearing dark grey clouds
High above tall thick boughs.
Lightning and thunder
Stormy winds and rain water
Lashing upon gabled tin roofs
Little ones scampering in bright waterproofs.
Hail stones hurtling down
Upon wet slippery ground
Dried palm fronds
Scattered all around.
Frogs constant croaking
In flowing white streams.
Infants wake up crying
To loud rumbling din.
Birds and dragonflies descend
Into muddy pools in a dream.
Dusty leaves and swaying trees
Washed fresh and verdant green.
Lilies in abundance bloom
The singing bird lifts our gloom
Ushering a new season
Of happiness and freedom.
Sounds of curfew
Sitting in my latticed balcony
Only winged friends to keep me company
I view the scene below
Of closed shops and empty street
No humans swiftly walking
Stray dogs in confusion striding
Wondering where did all the humans go?
Cars not plying, vendors not calling
Only the sound of silence ringing…
My pet parrot is shrieking
Pigeons are cooing,
Butterflies fluttering by
The woodpecker, I see, is pecking
Many times on my bedroom window
On the bark of that old kanchan tree,
She sits waiting for her soul mate
The common mynah flutters her wings
And stares at me to say
Why are you here today?
Oh blessed Nature!
The green grass, blue skies, tall trees
Fragrant flowers and beautiful creatures
The sun rays and gentle soft breeze
How could I overlook the dazzling sight
Expansively spread before my wide eyes.
Did it need a Janata curfew
To appreciate a few
Of Nature’s gift to mankind?
Did the chanting and trill
Drive the corona virus away?
But Mother Nature did come,
Closer to me I must say.
O Mother, dear Mother
I miss you everyday.
Because it’s your Birthday.
Your day begins with a special prayer
I do so fondly remember
For it seems only yesterday
That we celebrated your last birthday.
A large chocolate cake
At home you would bake
Not because it’s to your taste
Only, for your grandchild’s sake.
We sit around and jabber
Stretching our hands to the fire
While Mother, you rush in and out
To fill the table from your larder.
Too shy to cut the cake yourself
Mother, you whisper to your grandchild
And with the slim ribboned knife
The round chocolate cake sliced.
The delicious aromatic flavour
Draws us close to the spread
All six dive in to savour
And before long, it’s all over.
While Mother, you watch silently
A soft smile on your placid face
Did anyone have the grace
To fill up your empty plate?
Friends and family come to greet,
Anybody else who came to wish,
Nobody must go hungry, you said,
There’s enough for all to be fed.
While the fire crackled
The fireflies blinked,
Joy and laughter echoed,
Mother, your beautiful face radiantly glowed.
And before the day ended
With love and pride in your heart
You blessed us all
Wishing each one
Many happy days ahead
On Your Birthday!!
By Emil C
My Father, My Hero. My father, my hero I am a lucky girl to have a hero like you When I am with you, I feel liberated, You have empowered me to experience freedom. My father, my hero When I was a child, you gave me so much love I have seen in you a loving god You taught me right from wrong When I need help, I find you are always there. My father, my hero Who protects me from every evil It is due to you I have developed courage When I was a failure I felt sad but There is hope that's what you said. My father, my hero You gave us a beautiful life We all are successful because of you Yo bear every burden of ours . My father, my hero Your love and support every time is unconditional Now I am independent And it’s because of you I am a success in academics But your struggle was both mental and physical for my success. My father, my hero Boys and girls are equal it’s defined by you You gave me equal attention as brother You listen to what I say, give me what I want You treat me at par with your son. My father, my hero You love us unconditionally You hide your problems for our happiness You do everything for our bright future I am a lucky girl because you are my father. My father is not only my hero, he is my superhero. My father, I love you. *********** – Sangeeta Mahana, Research Scholar and Teacher.
Dr. Kalpna Rajput is a poet, translator, reviewer, editor and co-author of several books. Her poems, articles and papers appear in journals in India and abroad. She has edited books on poetry and criticism. She paintings have appeared on the covers of a number of books.
Farewell, My Blue Friend
The connection was invaluable.
By Sarada Tata
“Mummy, after all, it’s only a sari, I will get you another one – more beautiful and more expensive. Stop kicking up such a fuss about it!” said my daughter.
It was ‘just a sari’ for her. In fact, it was just that for the entire world. But for me it was much more than that. Six yards of silk had an entire lifetime’s story woven into it – good times and bad, happy times and sad. It had seen me through 50 years of my married life.
Old memories came flooding back.
I was 18 years old. An educated, ambitious daughter of a successful lawyer. I was a tomboy and a constant source of joy to my father and worry to my mother. I loved my father and his work. I knew more about briefs and arguments than needlework and cooking. My mother and aunt had given up on me. I was on the way to a degree when things took an unexpected turn.
My father had a fatal heart attack. My ambition of a career in law went with him. My brother, the only breadwinner in the family, did what was expected under those circumstances. He fixed my marriage with the first good match that came his way.
“He is an engineer, foreign returned, works in a good firm and earns three times as much as l do-what more do you want?”he asked.
“What indeed,”I thought.
He was 10 years older than I was ,a little on the plump side and his hair was already thinning at the temples.
“ls it his second marriage?”asked my friends.
“You look more like his daughter,” commented another kind soul.
So l got married to this”not so young” respectable engineer holding a great
job.My dreams of becoming a lawyer got a decent funeral at the holy fire of the wedding.
I cried silently blaming it all on my bad luck.Little did I realise that things may be different from now on.
My brother fell ill during the wedding. There was no one to accompany me to
my husband’s house.So we travelled alone-my new husband and I-to my new home and new life in a remote town in Odisha.
In the train I saw my husband for the first time.He was handsome despite his double chin and thinning hair.He was very soft-spoken and extremely understanding.I felt much better as I got to know him.
We arrived at the station in the wee hours of the morning.The platform was crowded even at that early hour looked as if the entire town had come to fetch us.My husband’s friends gave us a very warm welcome and I felt good for the first time since that fateful day when I lost my father.
It was then that I discovered that our luggage had been stolen. “Don’t worry, we will pick up something on the way,” said my husband consoling me.
“All my Kanieevarams, my wedding gifts -all gone,” I wailed.
“I will get you everything one by one,”he said reassuringly.
So we started our new life with a hunt for clothes. There was one shady shop in the small town.
“We keep only cotton saris,”said the owner apologetically.
I picked up a few good prints.
Then, as if he had second thoughts, the old man went in and brought out the most gorgeous creation in silk I had ever seen.
“Sir, I got this for my daughter. She is to be married next month. I will sell it to you. I will pick up one more for her.”
That was the beginning of a great friendship. It was a blue silk sari with a zari border. The border was no ordinary one-it had a row of elephants walking,
I conquered the little town in my new blue sari. It helped me forget the loss of my red Pochampaili sari.
On my eldest son’s first birthday, I greeted guest in my blue sari. It was the same sari, which saw me weep with joy as each of my four children graduated from school to college and careers.I did wear other saris during festive occasions, but 1 never let go of my dear blue sari with the elephant border.
Today it was my granddaughter’s annual function in school. She was playing Snow White.
“I will come as the blue fairy,” I promised her.
I went to the dry cleaners to pick up my saris.
“Sorry, madam. We cannot find one sari. maybe, it got damaged in a fire that we had in our shop last week. Of course, we will compensate your loss” said the man at the counter.
I could not believe it-I had given three saris. Why did only this one have to go. I could not stop the tears from roiling down my cheeks. That irritated my daughter.
“Come on, mummy. It is only a sari. I will get you. another blue sari-much more beautiful than the old one you lost. Accidents do happen, you know,” she added more kindly.”You will get compensated anyway, so why are you crying”
I did not say anything. It did not warrant any compensation. You cannot compensate one for intangibles like sentiments. To me it was not just a sari- I treated it as a part of me. I loved everything on it. I even named the elephants in the border and talked to them when I felt like talking to someone-no one would or could understand that. Fifty years of beautiful memories up in flames-and no amount can compensate that loss.
“Maybe, it was time for it to go,” said my husband as I put my head on his shoulders and cried.
° Maybe, it was time you gave it rest. I wore another sari for the function-
something 10 times more expensive and more appreciated than my blue sari.But to me that was just another sari.
That night my husband and I went through the old photo album and said a silent goodbye to my dear blue friend, that had, on more than one occasion, helped me face the world with confidence.
Previously published in The Women’s Era.
Sarada Tata graduated with Economics Honours from the famous Asutosh College in Calcutta ,a commendable achievement for a woman during that period of time. She choose to give her undivided attention on being a good homemaker after her marriage instead of joining service.
A voracious reader, she loves Jane Austen and Daphne Du Maurier. An independent individual who continues to find joy in reading, writing and discussing on myriad topics.Her contentment exemplifies how books can remain one’s lifelong companions and how they can influence one to adopt a positive attitude toward life.
Two Sisters search shared Spirituality in their
Visit to Sri Aurobindo’s Puducherry
True Spirituality is not to renounce
But to make Life Perfect with a
It was not an impulsive decision like hey, let’s go and buy a pizza for dinner tonight. It was a wish long nurtured but remained locked within our hearts for the appropriate time.
Our dear father, I remember, would oft repeat quotes at home of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother ( Mirra Alfassa ), speak of Sri Aurobindo’ s philosophy, spirituality and struggle for the country’s independence during meal times. So it was quite natural that my sister and I decided on a visit to Puducherry as it is now called.
Our visit turned out to be almost a surreal experience. There was a quiet peacefulness in the Aurobindo Ashram. A serene atmosphere of faith, devotion and spirituality which seemed sublime, almost tangible . Devotees from all parts of the world sat around the samadhi constructed under the service tree praying silently. Others slowly walked around the samadhi with bowed heads as if they were speaking to the Divine soul and asking for inspiration . A variety of flowers of different hues bloomed everywhere and the soft breeze carried their sweet scented fragrance all around us.The samadhi itself was totally covered with an abundance of different flowers and wreaths and more were being heaped upon it by the incoming visitors standing in the long queue. Branches of the service tree hung low like a canopy giving shade to the disciples on warm sunny days. We felt quite overwhelmed at the scene before us and sat down quietly to pray for love, peace and compassion.
Eighteen Kilometres from the centre of the city was the village called Auroville which was founded by the Mother. The drive to Auroville was a pleasant one including the long walk that took us through the vast stretches of green fields, tall thick trees and beautiful manicured gardens with waltzing flowers in full bloom. It made us feel very close to Nature. The sun on our backs and the warm earth while walking was very comforting and as we reached the top of the hill, a perfect view of the golden coloured dome constructed with hundreds of gold coloured cemented petals was visible from where we stood. This structure called the Matri Mandir was an amazing sight. The sun’s rays shining on the dome made it look like a gold petalled igloo in the midst of undulating plains. We entered one of the several meditation rooms built over thousands of the petals of the dome for a quiet peaceful hour. Every meditation room was assigned a name like Desire, Love, Sacrifice and so on and anybody could choose any of the rooms one desired to meditate in. We decided on Gratitude because we felt blessed to be there and had so much to thank God for.
Mornings were spent sipping the early morning cuppa in the balcony of our room which overlooked the sea, listening to the constant rolling of the waves hitting the shores. It was music to our ears. And then the celestial sight of the great ball of fire slowly rising in the horizon, spreading its different magical shades of crimson and gold across the blue sky was beautiful. Soon daylight broke outside and activity started buzzing in the Guest house and in the street down below. We moved away to start our days’ planned visits.
Evenings were spent leisurely sitting in the balcony after the afternoon siesta to watch the brilliant colours in the twilight sky as the sun went down. We took long walks along the beach where throngs of people strode the length of the beach road aptly named The Promenade . The beauty of the sun gliding into the sea while the shimmering sea waves caressed the shores never failed to take our breath away every time.
The pre and post dinner talks on spirituality turned out to be extremely interesting so we participated quite often . Mr Mukherji was a PhD on Sri Aurobindo and an author of books. He has published few of them. He told us he visits the Ashram every year to work in the Ashram. We gathered in the furnished lounge and took our seats in the many comfortable chairs placed in a semi circle as did several others interested in the discourse. Mr. Mukherji would lead the discussions on the life of Sri Aurobindo who was brought up in England from childhood, he had a full western education and was adept in Greek, French and a few more foreign languages. He talked of Sri Aurobindo’s fight for independence from foreign rule, his true relationship with the Mother, and also of his spiritual transformation during the year he was arrested and sent to prison. It was during his prison life that there was an awakening in Sri Aurobindo to a deeper faith in man and God. Sri Aurobindo believed that God sent him to prison and turned it into a place of meditation and his trysting ground.
In 1910, Sri Aurobindo came to Pondicherry and in 1914, the Mother joined Sri Aurobindo in Pondicherry. Together they conceived of a collective ideal which calls for collective effort for its realisation in every field of human activity – a task to build a new society that strives to express and embody a new consciousness which Sri Aurobindo calls the ‘Supramental’. He speaks of integral yoga, a search for the truth underlying human existence and how to find ways of bringing joy, beauty, harmony into our lives. It would need much effort and time to know more deeply about Sri Aurobindo’s philosophy and mission but the lectures of Mr Mukherji gave us at least a peek into the great man’s ideas and vision. Mr Mukherji was accompanied by his wife who is a petite lady and equally accomplished. Both scholars were a delight to listen to in the cool evenings. I would not hesitate to state that the talks were an interesting part of our visit.
I cannot close without making a mention of the Auro shop and the Auro Cafe run by the Auro Service Trust. The shop showcased different products and merchandise of high quality exhibiting the philosophy of Sri Aurobindo. One needs to pledge ones time, effort and resources to help ones fellowmen and that the sustainability of any initiative lies in appealing to the higher human values and ensuring commitment of all volunteers . The design, the colour combination and the craftsmanship of each item was very attractive and displayed a distinctive style. We spent one evening in the Auro Shop and collected a few mementos to carry back with us. A visit to the Ashram bookstore is a must. We picked up a few books which obviously included the Tales of Prison Life and Sri Aurobindo’s Thoughts and Glimpses.
Indeed, we were lucky to make a short visit to the Raj Niwas as well and see the beautiful garden and lawns. It housed a grand old majestic piano, the size one rarely gets to see. It caught my attention immediately and wondered where and when it was manufactured. The keys could still be played and heard but it needed tuning perhaps. The furniture were old and grand, possibly from the Victorian era, with bookshelves lined with innumerable fascinating books. It was certainly impressive.
The day of our departure drew close and we were a wee bit sad that our visit would soon be over. Memories, however, will linger and the calm and peaceful time will remain alive in us. We spent time and connected with people who were keen to give of themselves and what they possess to the more needy for better, happier and spiritual life.
It is better to give than to receive.
The charming Mrs. Emily Chowdhary completed her school and college from Kolkata and Darjeeling . In 1976-77 , selected as the Rotary Scholar she studied Special Education in the USA for a year. She completed her post-graduation in Business Management from Australia.
She belongs to the 1979 batch of the Indian Administrative Service. She held several key posts in the Government of Assam as well as the Government of Meghalaya. She was also Secretary to the Governor of Assam.
Mrs. Chowdhary retired from service in the year 2013 as Additional Chief Secretary to the Government of Assam, Department of Public Enterprises where she introduced several new initiatives for better governance. She now lives a happy and fulfilling life in Guwahati with her husband and two dogs. After years of office work she has finally found the time to indulge in a favourite hobby, writing.
Kamal’s Garden in Chandigarh
Kamal Siddhu is a devoted homemaker with a passion for flowers. Her beautiful garden in Chandigarh blooms the year round and is a safe heaven for many a winged visitor.
The Cherry Blossom Tree.